29/10/06

// feeling :: good!
// prayer for :: heh exam tmr =/

I felt so encouraged today! Well. Not now. -.- dejected.

I'm starting to hate a particular b-word.

I received a revelation from God with the help of a friend earlier today when I was struggling with reaching out to ppl. I learnt a lot today.

Time for self-evaluation tonight.

Nowadays, I do self-evaluation in my sermon journal. Pick out learning points from my day and how I can improve on how I deal with ppl; in my spiritual walk.

-Why am I drifting away from the main subject-

Ah, well, back to my revelation. Its found in Psalms 91! I'm just going to extract those verses that impacted me because typing the whole chapter into this entry is kinda out of point.


Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. -- vs. 1

For He will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease. -- vs. 3

His faithful promises are your armor and your protection. -- vs. 4b

Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you. -- vs. 7

[His angels] will hold you up with their hands so you wont even hurt your foot on a stone. -- vs. 12

The Lord says, "I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation. -- vs. 14-16


I love vs 12. There's so much more that God has prepared for us. Like my friend said, we all tend to overlook the blessings poured on us and gripe about our misfortune. Now that is a super bad habit we all have. Esp me sometimes -.- thats why I started my evaluation habit.

When I read the Bible now, I always saw how God reprimands and punishes ppl. I grew more afraid of Him each time I continued reading the Bible during my QT. But now, thanks to my friend, I've learnt not to be afraid of Him, but to fear Him instead.

To be afraid is to cower in that person's presence. To fear is to respect that person and to be resilient.

That message did encourage me and helped me solve my problem as quick as possible. But it also erased whatever cowardice I had in front of the Lord. I no longer feel afraid of Him, that whatever I do/say wrong, He'll release His wrath on me.

Because our God is a forgiving and merciful God, yes?

haha.

Oh and erm just for the record, and minimal misunderstanding, in my previous post I was criticising someone with the lame horns etc etc right? If you didnt get it, that person is Lucifer.. Just in case someone with the name starting with L gets offended.

Heh I should stop being indirect when I'm criticising someone eh. Minimize misunderstandings.

Later going to Sakae with Dj and maybe my dad hahahaha. I want to try smth bold today hahaha. Feel like stuffing myself.

Heh juz now Wk sent me an encouraging sms about my O lvls tmr, then Sis Cat called me! Lol they so nice. Hmmm..

Tmr O lvls! Jiayou!